You cry and you scream and you act pathetic. You skip out on showers and lay in bed for days on no end. You have pity parties. You get irritable and you push everyone away. You cry in bed, you cry in the shower, you cry in your car. You let your heart ache. You let the pain throb and pulse through your entire body. You blame them, you blame yourself and you blame the world. You exhaust yourself asking questions like ” what if.. “. You pretend you are starting to forget, only to have relapse. You drink irresponsibly only in hopes that you’ll forget for one night. However, this this will backfire and you will end up crying harder and trying to drunk dial them. You even consider giving up on life. You gather the strength to get up out of bed, and take a shower.. Only to breakdown once the water turns on. You attempt to completely remove them from your life, you attempt to bring them back in your life. You cant bear being around anything or anyone, because everything around you reminds you of them. You watch romance movies and listen to love songs. You have your good days and you have your bad ones. You distract yourself sometimes, but other times you sit comfortably with your misery. You wait around for the to come back, no matter how unrealistic that is. You wait until you wake up one day and the sun shines just a little different. The wind grazes you and there’s a slight spring in your step. One day you catch yourself laughing genuinely, and things seem okay. You go out with your friends and family again, except now your not distracting yourself anymore. You still have those Saturday nights when you sob while watching the Notebook while wondering if they’ll ever come back. But the feeling doesn’t last. You wake up on Sunday and feel alright again. Happiness will grow grow again, it just takes strength and patience.
” As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let you down.. probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more then once and its harder every time. You’ll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You’ll fight with your best friend. You’ll blame a new love for things the old one did. You’ll cry because time is passing too fast and you’ll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh way to hard, and love like you’ve never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you’ll never get back.”